“These sorting algorithms are important or what?”, I asked Hemant as I was going through them for the first time in my life! The clock was running like Usain Bolt making his way to the finish line! The exam was at 2pm. For a while, I thought this last minute mugging up is not anyways going to help me but still my heart was unable to digest it as easily as my mind did! “Only read Bubble Sort Algorithm, rest all are pure piece of shit!” Hemant suggested. I believed Hemant like a typical Indian, who believes in his luck when he buys a new lottery ticket and hopes to win a million rupees!
After a long time silence, my mobile started singing with joy and happiness! It was Jia of course. She was back from her industrial visit & short trip to north India a day before. I was expecting a call from her since morning. It was 11.30 AM now. I smiled & answered her call, “Hi Baby! Wassup? Why didn’t you call me up since morning? You know what I am just mugging up things for now; who wants to be the university topper anyways?” I justified like a typical engineering student, who says the same thing before each and every exam!! “What are you doing sweetheart? Where are you?” I asked her.
She didn’t seem to be in a mood to listen to me. “Tanmay, I wanna tell you something.” I felt the seriousness in her voice & also understood that she had not heard even a single word of what I had spoken earlier! “I think we should stop it here, we are going no where with this; I am finding it difficult to take it further…Can we just leave it here Tany?” I felt like a small kid who is forced to swallow a tablet when he falls ill. “What’s wrong Jia? Why are you saying this all of a sudden? What’s happening?” I was trying to figure out where the hell did I go wrong, when I was saying all this. Did I forget some important day like our “First Date Anniversary” or some stupid day like that which only a girl can remember? Or was she joking? “Tell me honey what’s happening with you?” I asked her again in a worried voice.
After a big sigh, she started, “Tany, do you remember my friend Pankaj I told you about? He has been looping around since a year now, he is a good friend & I didn’t want to hurt him anymore. You do know I am a person who doesn’t like hurting people!” I wondered if she thought I was happy listening to this shit? “During the trip, when we were at The Taj Mahal, he expressed his love for me again, he said all he wanted is to see me happy all my life and he could do anything for that. His eyes were speaking more than his words. That really made me think when he loves me so much, why should I play with his heart? He is always there every time I need something and he understands me a lot………..” Listening to all this made me lean backwards, I sunk gradually into my chair like a Mimosa Pudica Herb, whose leaves turn inward or droop when shaken or touched! I was not listening to her now. By this time, there wasn’t much of bubble sort or data structures left in my mind & the only thing that I could figure out was that she was leaving me for another guy. She had found someone else! I didn’t want this to happen. So I interrupted and asked her, “Is this all happening with me because I couldn’t come to see you last month? Or is it that you are being selfish? Don’t you think that I don’t deserve this Jia? Or do you think I am having fun here without you? When we are staying more than 1000 kilometers away from each other, its practically impossible for me to come to your place every time you feel alone or unhappy about something. We need to understand each other & our situations….” “But Tany, I don’t think this is going to help us anymore”, she interrupted. “Lets just stop it here, now that I’ve found someone, who is always with me and understands me better unlike you who is least bothered.”
By this time, each & every guy named Pankaj had become my enemy for life and I swear I could kill every Pankaj in this universe that I would come across. “Tany, I think you should leave this now, you have an exam today so you better concentrate on that, we will talk about this later, okay? All the best & forget this for now. Bye bye! ” All this felt so artificial and unreal to me. Instantaneously, I felt that this book of Data Structures was here to stay with me for at least one more semester! “I am fucked big time now” I thought. Hopelessly, I went back to my lovely linked lists and all others who must have been feeling rejected till now. Unlike Jia, they couldn’t find a better person to take care of them and since I didn’t want to screw up my exam , I started reading again. It was already 1 PM. “Gone with the wind…..Why does she always screw up my exams?” I thought.
Somehow I was also feeling happy that now, I at least had a reason to fail in the exam compared to my earlier situation where I lacked one! I was being reasonable, I thought!
After a long time silence, my mobile started singing with joy and happiness! It was Jia of course. She was back from her industrial visit & short trip to north India a day before. I was expecting a call from her since morning. It was 11.30 AM now. I smiled & answered her call, “Hi Baby! Wassup? Why didn’t you call me up since morning? You know what I am just mugging up things for now; who wants to be the university topper anyways?” I justified like a typical engineering student, who says the same thing before each and every exam!! “What are you doing sweetheart? Where are you?” I asked her.
She didn’t seem to be in a mood to listen to me. “Tanmay, I wanna tell you something.” I felt the seriousness in her voice & also understood that she had not heard even a single word of what I had spoken earlier! “I think we should stop it here, we are going no where with this; I am finding it difficult to take it further…Can we just leave it here Tany?” I felt like a small kid who is forced to swallow a tablet when he falls ill. “What’s wrong Jia? Why are you saying this all of a sudden? What’s happening?” I was trying to figure out where the hell did I go wrong, when I was saying all this. Did I forget some important day like our “First Date Anniversary” or some stupid day like that which only a girl can remember? Or was she joking? “Tell me honey what’s happening with you?” I asked her again in a worried voice.
After a big sigh, she started, “Tany, do you remember my friend Pankaj I told you about? He has been looping around since a year now, he is a good friend & I didn’t want to hurt him anymore. You do know I am a person who doesn’t like hurting people!” I wondered if she thought I was happy listening to this shit? “During the trip, when we were at The Taj Mahal, he expressed his love for me again, he said all he wanted is to see me happy all my life and he could do anything for that. His eyes were speaking more than his words. That really made me think when he loves me so much, why should I play with his heart? He is always there every time I need something and he understands me a lot………..” Listening to all this made me lean backwards, I sunk gradually into my chair like a Mimosa Pudica Herb, whose leaves turn inward or droop when shaken or touched! I was not listening to her now. By this time, there wasn’t much of bubble sort or data structures left in my mind & the only thing that I could figure out was that she was leaving me for another guy. She had found someone else! I didn’t want this to happen. So I interrupted and asked her, “Is this all happening with me because I couldn’t come to see you last month? Or is it that you are being selfish? Don’t you think that I don’t deserve this Jia? Or do you think I am having fun here without you? When we are staying more than 1000 kilometers away from each other, its practically impossible for me to come to your place every time you feel alone or unhappy about something. We need to understand each other & our situations….” “But Tany, I don’t think this is going to help us anymore”, she interrupted. “Lets just stop it here, now that I’ve found someone, who is always with me and understands me better unlike you who is least bothered.”
By this time, each & every guy named Pankaj had become my enemy for life and I swear I could kill every Pankaj in this universe that I would come across. “Tany, I think you should leave this now, you have an exam today so you better concentrate on that, we will talk about this later, okay? All the best & forget this for now. Bye bye! ” All this felt so artificial and unreal to me. Instantaneously, I felt that this book of Data Structures was here to stay with me for at least one more semester! “I am fucked big time now” I thought. Hopelessly, I went back to my lovely linked lists and all others who must have been feeling rejected till now. Unlike Jia, they couldn’t find a better person to take care of them and since I didn’t want to screw up my exam , I started reading again. It was already 1 PM. “Gone with the wind…..Why does she always screw up my exams?” I thought.
Somehow I was also feeling happy that now, I at least had a reason to fail in the exam compared to my earlier situation where I lacked one! I was being reasonable, I thought!
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